Francis Drake, Privateer

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I am the Person Formerly Known as Your Leader

Because of all this, I need to repent and ask your forgiveness. I was wrong. I thought wrong things. I believed wrong things. I modeled wrong things. I taught wrong things. I was wrong. I have sinned against you and the others and against my grace loving, mercy giving, all powerful, all loving God.

– I repent for teaching and modeling that the “covering” of our church, my leadership, and our network would keep you from going into rebellion or deception.

– I took your private confidences and passed them on to the other leaders regardless of my telling you that I wouldn’t. I told myself that this was an accepted practice to gain wisdom in dealing with your situation. Now I see it was probably mostly to garner, in some twisted way, the favor of my leaders, to show my loyalty and to gain a better placement of myself in their leadership system.

– I taught, modeled and practiced tithing. I taught you that if you didn’t tithe, bad things would happen to you and/or your finances. Now I understand the fallacy of this. It is a fear tactic – and it is not of God.

– I did not stand up and speak up when I heard and saw something wrong being taught, lived, or modeled. In this way, you, as people who respected me had neither voice nor protection. There were many times I should have spoken up gently/humbly to correct other leaders around me. I wrongly felt that it was up to God to correct and deal with them. That it was not my “place” to correct “God’s Anointed.”

– I wanted to be seen by leaders as loyal and mostly I wanted to be in what I perceived as one of the “inner circles of friendship.” I bought their friendship with flattering words, serving them unconditionally, not making waves, not challenging them and being disloyal to what I sometimes knew was wrong. I was a religious whore.

– I taught you that with leaders, you did not have the right to expect friendship or any sort of loyalty back. I told you that you should become what I had become, completely a servant. They owed you and me nothing. I have learned to watch out for “friendships” where I am the servant only. I have learned my “servanthood” was nothing more than trying to manipulate myself into prominence.

– I taught that the church was an Army and that we therefore needed Generals and Sergeants to lead us. (I of course saw myself as the sergeant – not the head but certainly one of the right arms of the head.) Again, I did not read my Bible.




March 11, 2009 Posted by | Bible, CHURCH, Eternity, Gospel, Kingdom life, Knowing God, Leadership, Uncategorized | 1 Comment

hear His voice, harden not hearts————– 9mar09

This is based on a comment that I placed on-

Many years ago, I had occasion to talk in depth to a very troubled and troublesome young man (Mike) who worked for my business. He was very anti Church and anti Christian. Christianity was far too wimpish for such a strong character as Mike was. I had to agree!

I was testifying to the fact that we had got to the current position in the business (that paid his wages) because of listening and doing what God had said to us. I was able to be quite specific over some things, which he clearly was a recipient of. ie. it was a prophetic word which caused us to purchase the failing business which employed Mike, and thus enabled such a conversation!

As he sat talking with me in my office, Mike suddenly asked, “ok then, how do you know when God is speaking to you”?

This question is a troublesome one for many Christians, let alone a non-christian. For a moment I was stumped, and sat back silently crying out to God in my spirit, for urgent help that would be crystal clear to  Mike.
Just as quickly as Mike had asked me, the answer became clear.
“Mike, you know when you’re in some place, where you didn’t ought to be, doing something you didn’t ought to be doing, (in his case frequently) and there is a very small voice inside saying MIKE,- you didn’t ought to be here, and you certainly didn’t ought to be doing this.  Is this familiar?”

He looked at, me grinning sheepishly. “Of course it is, who hasn’t been there.”

“Well imagine that same voice saying,–this is the way, walk with me.”

His look of recognition said it all. “Now I understand,” he said.

I challenged him to start asking God to help him understand a little more, and to give him some direction. God would speak to him if he asks. I did, however, tell him that he had to recognise that, if God is God, and Mike a created being, then he had to be a bit soft in his heart towards God otherwise he would never be able to hear through his arrogance and anger. This was all ok and understandable to Mike and he agreed willingly, he’d give it a go. This had nothing to do with going to church?

He was curious, and the curiosity got him past the rejection of God, Church and Christians.
A short time later he came into work whistling and singing cheerfully, quite an out of character occurance. One of my guys, a believer, asked what was going on. “Just talking to God, just talking to God,” was all he said, grinning widely.

One day he came in saying that God was talking to him about a difficult situation at home with his partner. He was being seriously challenged to do something, well outside of his character, to resolve a family issue which had caused her anguish for years.

He had said to God, “that doesn’t sound like the way I think, and you know I’ll probably forget it, so God, if that is your thoughts then remind me about it again on the way home tonight”.

God did speak to him again, and Mike did what God said and saw a miracle reconciliation in his partner’s family.

Mike was very impressed with God.
Mike still didn’t want church, he had found God though and carried on dialoguing with Him until he left the company, and I’ve not seen him since.
One man plants, another waters, but God gives the increase. I have no idea what finally became of him, but the transformation in a young man who had never had a father, into one who knew the Father was worth every moment.

Sadly Christians often object to the theology of this account.  Belonging to the church system fosters a dependancy on the leaders of the system to tell them what God may wants for their lives.  The church system itself,  however, does little to foster a close sensitivity for the still small voice of the Spirit at work in a mans heart. 

Because I didn’t get Mike to pray the “sinner’s prayer”,  they object that God would not possibly talk to Mike nor could Mike really hear God.  I put this down to jealousy from those who, caught up in the institutional system, had their ears well and truly hardened with education from the pulpit and had yet been beaten by a spiritual child.

Heb 3:7 Therefore, as the Holy Spirit says, “Today if you will hear His voice,
Heb 3:8 do not harden your hearts, as in the provocation, in the day of temptation in the wilderness,

Heb 3:15 while it is said, “Today if you will hear His voice, harden not your hearts, as in the provocation.”

Heb 4:7 He again marks out a certain day, saying in David, “Today,” (after so long a time). Even as it is said, “Today, if you will hear His voice, harden not your hearts.”

The same thing is repeated three times in succession, and then he is only quoting King David.

Our conscience is the inner ear we need to learn to follow more that any other religious activity.
I had to totally drop the typical “churchy” gospel, to speak revelation that went straight to his heart.

March 9, 2009 Posted by | Bible, CHURCH, Eternity, Gospel, Kingdom life, Knowing God, Uncategorized | 6 Comments

Heaven when you’re dead, or kingdom now 21 feb 09

This posting is based on a previous comment I put on- 

How did people get saved before Jesus?

What does “salvation” mean?

If you look at the Old Testament you will see virtually no reference to where we go after we die!

To them salvation


To them salvation


Jesus started his ministry in the synagogue in Nazareth, with this reading.-

 Luk 4:17 And the book of the prophet Isaiah was handed to Him. And unrolling the book, He found the place where it was written,

Luk 4:18 “The Spirit of the Lord is on Me; because of this He has anointed Me to proclaim the Good news to the poor. He has sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to proclaim deliverance to the captives, and new sight to the blind, to set at liberty those having been crushed,

Luk 4:19 to proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord.”


His anointing was not to preach heaven when you’re dead!!!!!!!! Read it again to verify this!!!!

His anointing was not to preach heaven when you’re dead!!!!!!!! Read it again to verify this!!!!

His anointing was not to preach heaven when you’re dead!!!!!!!! Read it again to verify this!!!!

Imagine Jesus meeting a blind man or a cripple.  “Don’t fear my son,  just believe in me and it’ll be great when you’re dead. ”

When John the Baptist, and Jesus, and the disciples, went forth preaching the gospel, what was it they said?

Mat 4:17 From that time Jesus began to preach and to say, Repent! For the kingdom of Heaven is AT HAND.

“At hand”, meant that it was right where they were, available but hidden from view. Jesus then proceeded to show exactly how close “at hand” it was by doing all sorts of  “kingdom”  things.

What does the church say? “Repent for the kingdom of heaven is WHEN YOU’RE DEAD”. It is “dead” easy to promise the uncheckable and unprovable.

Why do they change the meaning of the message? Simply because the church no longer has the faith to demonstrate the truth of the invisible Kingdom of God like Jesus and the early christians did.


 And please note that eternal life starts when you are reborn, and it cannot be lost through sin or rebellion etc. otherwise it could never be ETERNAL!!!

Notice, when Jesus rebuked Nicodemus,-

John 3:3 Jesus answered and said to him, Truly, truly, I say to you, Unless a man is born from above, he cannot see the kingdom of God.

John 3:4 Jesus answered, truly truly, I say to you, unless a man is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God.

It was about seeing and entering the hidden kingdom. It requires new birth, from above. This was not about having to believe in what Jesus was going to do on a cross three and half years later!

All the Old Testament saints were “Born from above” , and this was obviously well before the cross.


It was not and is not a fact that we need to comprehend about this to get to heaven when we die. Otherwise no one from before the time of Jesus would be there with us at the last day.

It is about time we took the mythology out of Christianity. It would help us to understand what the actual purpose of the Gospel is.

ie. What the bible says it is

Understanding about the cross, is about walking as a believer in the power that the cross gives.

The purpose of the Gospel is about the REIGN OF THE KINGDOM OF GOD IN THIS LIFE!


If you have just read this posting, and pass on from it without comment, doesn’t that make you indifferent to challenge? Or maybe you totally agree with me.

I welcome your thoughts on this post.

February 21, 2009 Posted by | Bible, CHURCH, Eternity, Gospel, Kingdom life, Knowing God | 12 Comments

King Saul and the thief—————-15 feb 09

This is based on a comment I put on a posting 11 feb 09.

I look forward to meeting the thief on the cross. He didn’t have much time for preparation.
I would also like to meet King Saul, who had lots of time for preparation.

The reason I like these two characters is the incredible similarity of the stories.


This man, undoubtedly evil, and having nothing in his favour, by the skin of his teeth in timing, gets a free pass to the Kingdom of Heaven. This being purely on the basis of the redeeming blood of the lamb.
Despite being next to Jesus, the thief had no theology to grant him understanding of what was REALLY happening on the crucifix next to him, yet he clearly sensed righteousness, AND GRABBED IT.

Luk 23:40 But answering, the other rebuked him, saying, Do you not fear God, since you are in the same condemnation.
Luk 23:41 And we indeed justly so, for we receive the due reward of our deeds, but this Man has done nothing amiss.
Luk 23:42 And he said to Jesus, Lord, remember me when You come into Your kingdom.
Luk 23:43 And Jesus said to him, Truly I say to you, TODAY YOU SHALL BE WITH ME IN PARADISE

This man had everything going for him. He was even counted among the prophets. Yet he had rebelled, and lost the anointing for the kingship. He, however, still claimed the throne for many more years, spending the most part of it trying to kill the one who actually possessed the anointing, David.
Saul ends up calling on a witch to read the future. A shock awaits. The long dead Samuel appears.

1Sa 28:15 And Samuel said to Saul, Why have you disturbed me, to bring me up? And Saul answered, I am grievously distressed, for the Philistines are warring against me. AND GOD HAS LEFT ME AND DOES NOT ANSWER ME ANY MORE, neither by prophets nor by dreams. And I have called you so that you may make known to me what I should do.
1Sa 28:16 And Samuel said, Why then do you ask me, since Jehovah has left you and has become your enemy?
1Sa 28:17 And Jehovah has done for Himself as He spoke by me. For Jehovah has torn the kingdom out of your hand and is giving it to your neighbor, to David.
1Sa 28:18 Because you did not obey the voice of Jehovah, nor execute his fierce wrath on Amalek, therefore Jehovah has done this thing to you now.
1Sa 28:19 And, Jehovah will also deliver Israel with you into the hand of the Philistines. AND TOMORROW YOU AND YOUR SONS SHALL BE WITH ME……

Sounds very similar to the words of Jesus on the cross.


Having plenty of time for preparation, Saul blew it. However, having been a son, even a rebellious one, he was still a son of the Father.
Where was Samuel that Saul should join him? As a faithful believer SAMUEL WAS IN PARADISE. (Abraham’s bosom)

Saul too, like the thief, gets in by the redeeming Blood of the Lamb, not by any goodness.

I am all too aware of my own fickleness. If I look forward to eternity, relying on my own stalwart obedience or sinless life to maintain the course, it frightens me.

I remember too clearly God very bluntly saying to me one day. “Every day, YOU do what Adam did!”
I would rather rely on the righteousness of Jesus for my meal ticket.
I will, between now and my time of going, like John the Baptist said, work at bringing forth “fruits worthy of repentance”.

February 15, 2009 Posted by | Bible, CHURCH, Eternity, Gospel, Kingdom life, Knowing God, Uncategorized | 1 Comment

Can men shut up heaven? —–7 feb 09

I have an old friend who once related this story of his preparatory school days.

This was a church school, and consequently at the appropriate age all the children had to take confirmation classes.
These classes where taught by the chaplain of the school, a Church of England minister. Until the children had been Confirmed in the church, they were not permitted to take the bread and wine of communion during church services.

The young boys,  as you imagine were a little disinterested in all the religious ballyhoo. However these where processes to be done, and being a fee paying school it was important that the school continued to churn out the sort of child the parents expected.

Finally the main event arrives, the youngsters all troop off to the school chapel for the special Service of Confirmation. This is presided over by the local Bishop. It being his job during the appropriate  part of the service to lay hands on each boy.

Now despite the general disinterest from all the boys in the academics of  communion, somethings had actually gone home.
They had been taught that when the Bishop (the man with the funny hat) laid hands on them they would all be filled with the Holy Spirit just like Pentecost.
If nothing else, my friend and his young buddy had digested this little bit of information. They, in their childish hearts, actually had an expectation of something from God.

At the appropriate point of the service the boys went down in pairs to kneel before the Bishop, for him to lay his two hands upon them. My two friends followed in at their turn and knelt with some anticipation. As he laid hands on them, suddenly they were filled with the Spirit of God and speaking with other tongues.

The reaction to this was an outraged horror from the Bishop and the Chaplain, who rounded on the two, yelling at them to stop this “devilish babble”. The two boys, not knowing what had hit them suddenly had their joy quenched by the full weight of ecclesiastical authority, who of course knew that the actual gifts of the Holy Spirit had ceased with the death of the apostles. This terrible babble could only therefore come from Satan himself.

The children’s foolishness in believing what had been taught was their undoing.

For my friend, it was well over twenty years, and plumbing the depths of alcoholism, and a destroyed marriage before he had anyone bring to him the reality of God in his life again. He once again found the One he had met before, and was healed, restored, filled with the Spirit again, and speaking in tongues!

It is abundantly clear that the ministers of the church had less faith in the truths they taught than their hearers. Yet it is God who convicts, even a child, of the validity of what is said.

Sadly it also shows how the messenger can also intrude into the message and pervert it.   

Mat 23:13 But woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you shut up the kingdom of Heaven against men. For you neither go in, nor do you allow those entering to go in.

Sadly, religion so often shuts up heaven in favour of man’s wisdom. However the regalia of denomination has its reward on earth only. How often do we shut up heaven because of our unbelief?

February 7, 2009 Posted by | Bible, CHURCH, Eternity, Gospel, Kingdom life, Knowing God, Leadership, Uncategorized | 3 Comments

Finding God without church — 30 Jan 2009

Until I was eleven, my family did not go to church. My parents believed in God, of that there was no doubt, but there was no evidence other than our nightly prayers asking God to, “Please God bless……” .

I was away from school quite a lot because of illness and this, out of boredom, caused me to read a lot. I must have read every book in the house.

Somewhere along the line, my older brother was given a picture book of bible stories. I don’t know if it interested him at all, but I read it on one of my days off school. I liked the hero stories in the Old Testament such as Samuel, Gideon or David. However the New Testament didn’t have the same grip because the hero, that Jesus guy, ended up being  killed, and that left me feeling bad. I liked stories with happy endings!

At this point, don’t forget that I was not in a professing Christian family, nor was I going to church. I was reading Old Testament stories in a children’s picture book, and what little I had read of the New Testament I did not like or understand. To me Jesus was nothing more than one of the characters of the nativity scene.

From my later experience with the Lord, I can use the right language to describe what happened to me next, when I read the story of Samuel being called by God.

In my book, the third time God called out to Samuel, the picture alongside the story showed him on his knees, looking up to heaven as he responded to God with the words, “Speak Lord for thy servant heareth.” 

As I read it, the Holy Spirit came upon me. In my heart, I WANTED WHAT SAMUEL HAD GOT. I got out of bed, onto my knees and said, “Don’t forget me God”. That’s all.

I knew in my heart that it was for real, the burning feeling inside was like something had happened, but I got back into bed and continued reading the story, telling no one of the experience. I only recalled it much later in life when I heard the gospel for the first time.

When I was about eleven years old, my parents started taking us all to the local Anglican church for the first time.  I can’t remember much of what was taught, except that the sermons were exceptionally boring to a young boy. However I did enjoy singing old fashioned hymns.

One sermon, however, stands out above all others. It is the only one I remember and was all about the crucifixion. The vicar explained at great length why the particular death of Jesus was more significant than any one else’s death.  According to the vicar, crucifixion was the most barbarious and cruel torture invented by man, therefore Jesus’s  death was set apart and high above all other deaths, (presumably giving him power to take the punishment for ALL sin).

I listened to this and totally rejected it. Even in my young naivety I knew that the likes of Hitler’s Gestapo torturers enjoyed the ability to keep their victims alive for weeks or months, refreshing their torture daily, whereas Jesus was dead in a few hours. I therefore dismissed the Easter story as irrelevant.

One day, a little older, I was hanging around across the road from the church with a bunch of church children, when, out loud, someone voiced the question, “Ok then, who goes to heaven and who goes to hell?”

For me, the memory of that brief event is like one of those times in a film when it suddenly starts to run very slow, deliberately making a very poignant moment. As soon as he finished the question, everyone turned towards Tony, who was the altar boy and a little older than the rest. He always stood at the altar nearer the vicar, and handed him the wine chalice and was therefore closer God. Tony would know the answer!

His answer was straightforward. “That’s easy, good people go to heaven, and bad people go to hell!”

As he was answering, I was turning around in what seemed incredibly slow motion to face him.  As I did so my eyes panned over the church building. It was as if something descended upon me, an understanding which did not come from within, but from above.

With that descending presence came the words, “He is totally wrong, everybody is bad, I am bad, but GOD has made a way.”

And as I gazed at the buildings of church, “and I do not live in that church, I live in your heart”

These few but significant words became an integral part of me as I grew up. I continued with my parents attending church but was aware of God within me, rather than in the church. However I was still proud and arrogant, knowing nothing of repentance or humility.

Later, in my mid twenties, after working for eight years in engineering, I decided to go to college to learn to be a teacher. I only did this because I wanted the long school holidays for the purpose of going mountaineering and rock climbing, my passion at the time.

Shortly after arriving at college I was, to my irritation, harrassed by over-enthusiastic members of the college God Squad.  On the pretext of a cup of coffee for a newcomer I was tempted into their lair. Over a period of a few weeks there ensued many heated discussions, but there was no way I was willing to let go of my freedom and join this crowd of wierdos.

I had a special resistance within. This was because God had said quite clearly to me that He did not live in the church, but in my heart. I showed no outward evidence of such truth, but in no way was I going follow this Christianity stuff. I didn’t need church. Besides God had clearly said to me that he did not dwell in the church. To me that meant any church, any denomination, even any religion!

However, they didn’t play fair, they prayed. In the course of conversations, one of them told me that God had shown her that I had given my life to the Lord as a child!  That finally got my attention. It was slowly dawning on me that the God they were talking about was the one I had already known for years. Even if I had backed Him into a corner in my life, and certainly didn’t heed Him much, I still knew Him!

I was having trouble counting the cost of commitment.  For me, my mountaineering was like a god. Now The One True God was challenging me to the core of my being. WHO was going to reign in me? I knew that the cost of surrender would be the dropping of my first love of the mountains and also of the company I was keeping. I knew that my old climbing friends were  heading entirely in the opposite direction, and I could not have both. 

Finally, after much soul searching, I relented, I repented, and surrendered my life back to the Lord, the prodigal effectively coming home. My climbing equipment went into store, and I turned to face the opposite direction, much to the disgust of all those who knew me before. There were many things I knew I could not continue.

Since that time, in the mid seventies, much water has passed under the bridge, but looking back several things can be noted about my little saga.

Firstly, I came to know the Lord long before anyone preached Jesus to me.

Secondly, and more amazingly, when the church I attended as a teenager had totally abdicated its call to spread the word of truth, God gave me a direct heavenly download of the very basics of life.

God’s message was that we are all fallen/bad, that man’s efforts at goodness are futile (good people also go to hell!), that God himself has made a way, that he dwells in our hearts.

All this is confirmed in scripture.

My cry for eternity was simply, “GOD DON’T FORGET ME”. For me, this is where it all started.

It must have been ten or twelve years later that I heard that it was Jesus who did it for me, even though I did not know his name!

Work your church theology around that!

I write this because I know that there are many Christians who meet the Lord well before Gospel theology hits them. Sometimes the preacher of that gospel does his utmost to trash what has happened before, because it simply threatens their production-line evangelism.

Also, if someone can receive the Gospel without being told by an evangelistic christian, what is the point of evangelism, or churches for that matter.

The answer to these last points I will try to post in the future. In the mean time I would welcome comments from those who have had similar experiences of meeting God well before they hear the Gospel.

January 30, 2009 Posted by | Bible, Eternity, Gospel, Kingdom life, Knowing God, Uncategorized | 10 Comments